From the book I’m reading:

“You can wish as hard as you want for something to stay,
but it will slip right through you,
drift to the bottom of
you
as you stand, watching,
watery, logged,
bleating bloated blubbering,
doing and holding nothing.
Look at yourself, Biz.
Do you see?
pushandshoveandslap
How useless/stupid/hopeless you are?
Of course the waves should take you.
Yes.
Of course.
They should.”

~Helena Fox — “How It Feels To Float”